Called for such a time as this…

“To be a part of where God is moving is a privilege.” Pastor Don Cousins Discovery Church ~ Orlando, FL

This was the first thing I grasped as I searched for answers for my prayers. My prayer for direction and blessing… for that direction is what I was looking to have answered. Last week the Lord began to answer me. The message was coming from the story of Ruth how nothing is coincidence but a “divine coincidence”…. “to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ,” Ephesians 4:12…  That at this very moment God brings into clarity what path He is asking me to choose  “for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure” Philippians 2:13.… Removing…making me very uncomfortable…in the position I am in… “And after you have suffered a little while,” 1 Peter 5:10a….to move me into a position that will absolutely challenge me to the core…. “the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you” 1 Peter 5:10b… Fear sets in but…fear doesn’t come from the Lord so… “For God gave me not a spirit of fearfulness; but of power and love and discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7…So He gives me peace to do what He calls me to do… “And we have confidence in the Lord about you, that you are doing and will do the things that we command.” 2 Thessalonians 3:4

So much to pray about. So much that may be overwhelming at times…. So much to rely on His strength and provision to continue the work He has called us to do. Growing in His mercy and grace…every single day. Not knowing where it will all lead. Trusting God and all He has for me. Listening for His voice and direction.

Prayer: Lord, I need your strength and guidance. I need for you to go before me as I make decisions that will not only impact my life but the lives of others. I ask that you intervene in anything that is not according to Your will. For it is Your will that I seek not mine. Help me to align my heart and thoughts with what You want for me. I pray that You will open doors that only You can open and close doors that only You can close. I thank You for your great provision in my life in all things. My heart yearns to do what You want me to do…even if it makes me uncomfortable. Just please Lord give me the strength and courage to do it and be able to truly serve You. In the Mighty Name of Your Son Jjesus…Amen!

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Struggle….just struggle…struggle with my thoughts…my obedience…my desires…my finances…my decisions…just struggle. God can you help me? Make the path clear for me, if it be your will, that I may know where to walk boldly and obediently.

Started to read the final chapters of When Women Say Yes to God by Lysa Terkeurst. I was listening…waiting…anticipating He would speak to me…and then my heart was hit and I began to weep. There it was for me…clearly He spoke…clearly He made it clear…”Trust ME”…

The verse that He spoke to me through was this verse…”Test me in this,” says the Lord Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room for it.”  Malachi 3:10

I sobbed…I just sobbed…I couldn’t contain my tears as I sobbed. God has yet again confirmed this doubtful servant, who was seeing things from a worldly point of view and had taken her eyes of His road and guidance, and focused her eyes back to where they need to be. He called me to continue to trust Him. To focus on Him and not my circumstances. To focus on His plan and not mine. To submit to His will and not mine. What a powerful, merciful and graceful God we serve! His love for me endures forever…

I read on and He then led me to a previous vision He gave me in a dream many years ago when I first began my journey in Him. I had the following dream:

I found myself standing in the church (First Baptist Church of Cape Coral – which is where I got saved and baptized for the first time). This tiny little church with it’s old fashion pews, old fashion stage. While I was dreaming I saw myself speaking to the Pastor when all of a sudden I saw myself pointing behind him to the stage where the choir usually sits/stands. The whole wall was gone. It was completely open.  I couldn’t hear at all throughout the dream what I was talking about or what the Pastor was saying to me but it was clear I was telling him to look behind him. When he turned around I focused my attention on what I saw.

My vision was a wheat field. A beautiful, golden, bright shining wheat field that extended as far as the eye can see. A clear blue sky. The light shining on the field was so bright but not a blinding brightness. It was a beautiful brightness as if the Glory of God was shining down upon that field. I found this strange because to be honest…being a city girl I never knew or saw, that I could remember, what a wheat field looked like. I had never even been on a farm! It was precious and beautiful to me. I woke up from that dream and God led me to a verse from the bible as I went straight to the bible to see if there was anything that referred to wheat fields and what their meanings were. This is what I found at that time:

“The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.”

I did not understand it’s meaning…I was a baby christian. Eager to learn what God wanted me to do. I wrote my vision down in my prayer journal that I had started and left it there. I then left it there. God continued to bring me back to it from time to time but I did not ask for any more interpretations until just recently. I remember asking God to reveal the meaning of that dream to me. I don’t know why I asked but I wanted to know. He then revealed to me this meaning from reading What happens when women say Yes to God:

“The Old Testament term for the word gentleness, anah, describes a mature, ripened shock of grain with its head bent low and bowed down. Just think for a moment on the beauty of this word picture. As wheat grows, the young sprouts rise above the rest. Their heads shoot up the highest because no grain has yet formed. In their immaturity, little fruit, if any, has appeared. But, as time passes and maturity sets in, fruit comes forth – so much of it that the burdened stalk bends and its head sinks lower and lower – and the lower the head the greater amount of the fruit.” (page 137 of What Happens When Women Say Yes to God by Lysa Terkeurst)

My burdens, as I cast them on His shoulders, will bear much fruit…but only on His shoulders not mine. Only by His will not mine. Only by trusting Him not me. Giving Him all of my burdens not just some. Trusting He will put it all in order for me.

What an answer to prayer! What I thought back then was a message for my pastor was a message for me years later….13 years later…What an amazing God I serve!!!!

Trust Him? Yes! Give it all up? Yes! Follow Him? YES!!! – All to Jesus I surrender…

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Passing the baton…



Front left to right: Elaina, Carmen, Debbie, Dorothy

Back left to right: Nancy, Sara, Maria (mom) 

My mother passed on her love for bible studies to me. I could still hear her saying “Did you all do your homework?” “I did mine!” She was sure that we would get scolded for not doing ours…lol…I’m wishing she was here right now finishing the one we never got to finish. We did, however, stop on Chapter 7. Seven being completion. 

What can I give my kids? Her legacy. My legacy…their legacy to pass the baton…

Current Bible Study… “What Happens When Women Say Yes to God” by Lysa TerKeurst – doing this study online with Proverbs 31 ministries. An amazing OBS for women all over the world! Come join the study with me by signing up on their site and following  along.


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